Current volunteer in Detroit with Mercy Volunteers
Teaching is hard. As a student I took my teachers for
granted; I complained about the tactless and unpassionate ones, and mildly
sassed the effective but boring ones. As a student I had zero appreciation for
the time and energy my teachers spent on incorporating benchmarks into their
lesson plans, on creating tests and assignments, or on the never-ending
grading.
Now that I have served as a
high school teacher for the last 7 months, I have a whole new sense of awe for
what teachers and educators do. But one aspect of teaching has still eluded me…
why do teachers keep doing what they do?
I personally want to be a teacher when
I grow up, but I don’t know if I will be able to continue the momentum of
teaching for the next 35 years or so. Essentially, I am at a loss as to why
veteran teachers continue to persevere in the classroom, long after the glamor
and new-car smell has worn off. It’s not for the great pay or flexible hours.
It’s not for the prestige or celebrity status.
So why?
I gained a small insight into this recently on a
particularly grey and dull Monday. It
was a Monday after a long weekend and I was anticipating untamed and
uninterested students whose behavior would range from barely able to stay in
their seat to barely able to stay awake. I told myself the night before to give
up on trying to predict how horrible this Monday would be… how uncontrollable
and talkative the kids would be, how unprepared and incomplete my lesson plan was,
how over the long weekend I had probably lost my classroom confidence. On
evenings when all of these insecurities are invading my mind, I chant to
myself:
“KT, there is zero point spending a whole evening stressing
over just two hours of classroom time. You need to prioritize your time and
energy, and dreading the unknown is not a priority.”
Remarkably, I felt pretty good when I got to work that
morning and classes (as always) were fine. Sure, some kids were a little bit
chatty, some a little antsy, but after the first 15 minutes, everyone was
relatively calm. My lesson plan was also fine. Considering I made the kids do
most of the work, it landed on them to be productive (or not). And my
confidence trickled back throughout the class. Good day, all in all.
I was content with this. I survived and now the next 3 hours
was to be spent preparing for the next day. Golden.
At lunch time I headed downstairs to carbo-load and I ran
into one of my favorite students. He has the lowest grade in both of my
classes, and is at risk of not being able to graduate if he doesn‘t pass my
class. Thing is, his attitude in class
(and out) is funny, sweet and genuine, and he really does try hard in my class.
This year he was diagnosed with a learning disorder which might explain a large
portion of his academic struggle, but unfortunately he is under the impression
that the reason he is struggling is because he’s stupid.
This drives me CRAZY
because intelligence cannot be reflected in a grade; some random letter or
percentage does not dictate anyone’s IQ. But in a system where grades are given such emphasis, it is very
frustrating that all his hard work does not reflect in his grade… is it any wonder
that he is discouraged?
Anyway, when I bumped into him I congratulated him on his
last test. He looked confused because he hadn’t checked his test grade online
yet. When I told him he scored a 72% (highest grade he has received on a test
or quiz so far) he looked shocked, and then he just BEAMED. He thanked me (I am
not sure why) and I told him that I didn’t have anything to do with his grade,
that the 72% was all him and his hard work. He beamed all over again.
That look on his face, oh man, THAT is why teachers continue
to do what they do. THAT is why they still work even though they are paid next
to nothing and work hours and hours at home. THAT is why they go into so much
debt in order to get that stinking Teaching degree. THAT is possibly one of the
most rewarding reactions/looks that a student can gift a teacher with. THAT
made my day.

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